Why I still love you?
Why I do not get rid of you?
Why are you constantly in my head?
I cannot live
to know that you will never again talk with me.
To ignore me hurts so much.
It hurts so much to know that you think I'm an idiot.
To know you were so unhappy
over such a long time, makes me cry.
Life doesn't make fun anymore.
I cannot remember the last time I've laughed,
when I was glad to be here.
Every day I think of you.
Every day I hope it stops,
I can return to a normal life.
Your words sound logical to you,
for me it's just painful.
To know that this relationship was only because you were young
and you don't know what you wanted, hurts.
To know that for you "us" have never played a role,
but everyone for himself, hurts.
That I never really know you, hurts.
To know that you think that everything was bad what we did,
what we have done together, hurts.
To know that you never regarded my friends as ours, hurts.
It hurts so much and yet I still love you.